I miss being in a relationship.

Just so you know, it’s not the first time I am saying this. 
I miss everything about being committed. The feeling, the little pressure, the date outs and the butterflies. 
Everything. It’s just inevitable to feel lonely and envious whenever I see happy couples. 
I don’t know why.
I’m not desperate nor rushing things up. 
I’m just feeling this little emptiness in me that only one person can fill. 
But as of now, I still don’t know who that person is. 
Maybe we’ve already met or we’re about to, someday. No one knows.

A while~

Its been a while since my last post..
masyado kasing nagenjoy at naging busy this december and
quarter days of november.. plus the factor na graveyard shift...
blanko ang braincells ko to wright random stuffs about my
life...

the last few weeks its been great...
puro happiness and drama...
some problems na naovercome naman and make
me and my relationships w/ my friends more stronger...

wala akong masabi...
kasi i already got it all...
true friends that i know wont last forever
but still, enjoying the moments that we still have together..

i know friends come and goes...
its normal kasi wala naman talagang permanente sa mundo.. ryt?
oo... malungkot if iisipin when time comes that they will leaves away...
pero naenjoy ko naman na kasama sila...
memories that will stay on the corner of my mind..
na everytime na aalahanin mo...
makes u smile ...
lahat ng kalokohan and everything...

if that time comes...
its ok naman maging malungkot for a while..
its very normal kasi tao ka..
meron taung emotions...
pero as usual.. we need to move on and live life...
and it will be a new chapter of our life...
new friends, adventure and memories....

:)

BreakDown

the past few days...
medyo mainitin nanaman ulo ko...
because of 1 reason..
stressss....!!
stress sa bahay...

im not really sure if i should come back home....
im confused.. kasi its complicated...
at nasstress ako dahil dun..
thats why...
pinagtritripan ko nalang yung ibang tao...
para mabaling sa iba yung attention ko...
and to forget about it.. for a while...

ayoko naman iopen sa iba yung personal
problems ko..
kasi its not me...
i always keep it by myself...
even kay janine.. di ko masabi..
kasi i know.. my mga problema din sya personally..
kahit di nya sabihin... ramdam ko naman yun sa kanya,,,
and i dont want to open it up..
kasi were like the same...
di kami nagpapakain sa problema...
we always goofing around... fun.. fun.. fun..
kasi mas ok na yung masaya kami...
were always happy...
and ayoko maging dramatic...

but its really hard to handle...
minsan my times talaga na naiisip mo...
at sinusumpong ka...
tinotopak...
like masaya kanaman kanina.. then...
biglang mood changer...
nawiwirdohan tuloy mga kasama ko sa bahay...
kasi wala naman silang idea what im going through...
and di talaga ako mahilig magsabi ng problems sa ibang tao..
palagi ko nalang sinasarili...
na minsan pag di ko na kaya...
nagpiFreak out nalang ako bigla,,!..

but kanina...
sinumpong nanaman ako...
ang pangit ng gising ko...
at my napaginitan nanaman ako na tao sa bahay... si aris..
di ko alam bat ba naginit nalang ulo ko...
kabadtrip...
and pag tinopak talaga ako..
as in sagadang topak..!
much better na pabayaan mo nalang ako..
kasi later on magiging ok nanaman ako..
pero kanina...
sagadan talaga...
di ko na kayang dalhin yung personal problems...
why i dont want to go home for some reasons...
but i really need to go home... for a good reason nadin...

after work nagimpake na ko...
badtrip kasi talaga ako...
na di ko alam kung bakit...
maybe.. masyado na kong naatached sa mga tao na kasama ko sa bahay...
at mas lalo lang ako mahirapan magadjust pag wala na sila...

pero di ko sila kaya iwan...
si aris... inakyat ko sya sa taas...
di ko na kinaya...
i need someone to talk...
and yun nag nervous breakdown na ko sa kanya..
i opened up everything...
na hindi ko pa sinabi kay janine...
kasi sobrang sensitive ng isssue...
di ko alam bat ko sinabi kay aris...
pero ang hirap kasi dalin..
ang hirap ng walang mapagsabihan...

its a secret na mahirap sabihin sa ibang tao...
sobraaa...
but si aris naman yun...
ayoko ng sinasarili problema ko...
kasi di naman talaga ako ganun ka strong...
actually im weak...
buti nalang nanjan yung little brother ko and friends...
na sa kanila ko kinukuha ung strenght ko...
para tumawa pa at maging happy everyday...

ayoko talagang umuwi samin...
pero kaylangan...
sobrang complicated...
hayyyy....

Housemates part 1

well...
this are my housemates...
a.k.a my workmates, friends... but i prefer to call them my Family....
after  my family broked up...
i never felt having the care.. support and everything that
family has to offer... na sa kanila ko lang ulit naramdaman...
i really love this guys.... i dont really show it...
but pinaparamdam ko naman sa kanila yun...
and they are all important to me...

Aris would be the most important one...
kasi his one of the greatest person na naging part
ng journey ko through life....
sa kanya ko naramdaman magkaroon ng Kuya...
his like my Big Brother...
and it feels good... na magkaroon ng bigbrother...
ramdam ko how much he love me...
and all the cares he given me....
nandyan palagi during my down and up moments...

Mahal na Mahal ko yan si Aris...
nakasama ko sya sa Paghihirap moments...
at Tagyaman moments...
kahit nahihirapan na sya di mo makikita sa muka nya
yung iritado... magmemake face lang saglit.. then ok na!.. :'D

inaabuso ko na nga yan.. kasi napakabait sobra...
palagi kong binuburaot yung Plan nya.. Haha!...
and its hard for me to leave him...
kasi nsanay nadin ako na kasa ksama sya sa bahay....

mamimiss ko yung boses nya...
pag ginigising nya na ko... :((
kapag nagkakape kami together at maguusap
about sa anong bagay bagay,,,...

he will always be the Best.! ♥

Yuan ...
ewan ko bat madali syang mastress pag niloloko ko sya...
kaya ang sarap nyang pagtripan eh...
natutuwa ako sa reaction nya.... haha...
Love na Love ko yan si yuan...
di ko nalang sinasabi kasi... SO GAY! diba...
specially sa Angas-looks nya di bagay sabihang...
"Yuan, Love na Love kamu kita" YAYkkksss!
kinikilabutan ako.. assuming pa naman yun...
isipin pa nya Type ko sya..!!??? :O
i swear .. BiG NO!!,,..
kahit tabi pa kami ma2log...
ni kahit konting pagnanasa wala!... HAHA!
kung icocompare naman sa looks ni Aris,,,
na Good Boy Looking...
basta... mabait yan si yuan..
kahit ganyan itsura nyan.. haha,,,..
marami yang kalokohan sa buhay...
at pinagtritripan ko sya about dun.. bwahaha...
But who cares.. Buhay nya yan...
kanya kanyang trip lang yan,...
kaya i dont judge him..
kasi i dont have the right naman dba...
at Trip nya un.. kaya dedma lang....

Ronnel...
pinakaGwapo!...hahaha...
di paman kami ganun katagal magkasama
compare kay Aris at Yuan...
pero masaya ako w/ him...
sarap nya din kasi pagtripan.. hehe...
ganun lang kasi talaga ako maglambing sa kanila...
basta isa syang tubong Bataan na napadpad sa Olongapo
upang tuparin ang kanyang mga pangarap...

Anyare???

Minsan may mga taong sadyang...
mahirap unawain...
i dont know...??!..
bakit ba may mga taong sadyang tampuhin sa mga
bagay bagay na ginagawa nilang problema...
at pinapahirapan ang sarili nila...

I f you feel na may problema sayo ang isang tao...
What would you do???

Offcourse! harapin mo sya...
and slap your mouth into his Face!..
and say...
DuhhHH??! Whats your Problem???!!
tama...
pero doing it the other way...
as in.. in a makitid na utak way....
bakit mo kaylangan sabihin sa iba???
why is he treating me like this and that?...
WHY??!!
and make you look kaawa awa and ako ang
magmukang Evil wide mouth sharp eyes Crazy Bitch!...
sa mata ng ibang tao??...
i dont know kung ano gusto mo mangyare??
siraan ako sa mga katrabaho at katropa ko???
FUckkkkk!!...
may narinig ka ba coming out of my mouth...
na "I dont want u to be here @ my place!!"
naramdaman mo lang yun...!!
and you dont get my point...
na ang point ko...
wag ka masyadong abosado at may sarili
din naman akong buhay sa loob ng bahay
at wag mong gawing habitual ang pagtulog sa bahay...
na halos every other day 4-5x a day...
dun kana natutulog??!
Hello my Private life din naman ako..
at pede minsan wag kang istorbo...!

kung kinausap mo ko..
bago ka nagopen ng himotok mo sa ibang tao..
we wont end up like this sana.. HAHAHA!,. GrrRRR!!

Inspirasyon NANAMAN!!!!!???

i dont know what to say..
but to make it shorter...
kasi wala talaga ako maisip na as in absent minded ako...
kasi nga night shift na ko at patay ang mga cells ko sa utak...
heres an update..
Meet Pee Jay...
my new guy.. hehe..
ok..ok.. i know.. masyado akong mabilis akong nakarecover...
which is Good kahit na sinasabi nilang di pa daw...
pede ba??? helloww...!!..
bat naman ako magmumukmok sa taong wala na...
pahirapan ba ang sarili???..
di naman ganun ka complicated ang life..
sadyang my mga tao lang talaga na ang trip
sa buhay ay pahirapan ang sarili nila at gawing complicated ang buhay...

Ok.! enough with the not-so-me introduction.. kinikilabutan ako..
at baka pastor na ang kalabasan ko...
so ayun.. his name is Pee Jay...
i dont want to talk about the details..
but i met him nanaman online..
na source ng kalandian at kapokpokan kung
kaya nasisira ang buhay ng kabataan.. Chos!..
na hilig ko din naman...

what can i say about this new guy....
mmmmmMMMmmmm...
di pa ganun ka Long Long kasi di panaman..
kami ganun ka Long Long na magkakilala...
like 1 week palang??... ayus dba..
basta natutuwa ako sa kanya and his different nanaman..
w/ the other guy.. kasi nga lahat sila may
kanya kanyang attitude, personality at lasa... CHOZZ!!!... (which is truelalu)
basta... mahilig sya tumawag...
pag breaktime. sa work.. sa bahay...
pero as much as possible di ko sya pinapatwag pag sa bahay na ko...
kasi nga ayaw ko maissue sa mga housemates ko..
but as usual wala naman akong privacy sa bahay
kahit pag pilitan ko.. kahit tawiriin ko pa ang bundok ng kung ano man.. (punso)
or languyin ang ilog ng sta.rita...
Malalaman din nila lahat lahat ng bagay.. na right at this moment alam na nila.! haha..
asa pa ko.. jusko!.. mga housemates ko daig pa pamilya ko.. asus!
ewan ko ba di ako m agaling magtago...
so forget the Papasikreto echos sa bahay.. kasi wala din naman papatunguhan..
at alam na nilang lahat na pati sa trabaho ko Kumalat!!..
Ganun na ba ako ka popular???!! gang sa Work....
lakas maka SHowbiz!.. kaloka.! echos..

... naligaw na tayo dahil sa kung ano anong kaechosan...
basta mahilig sya tumawag...
at take note kinakantahan nya ko bago ako makatulog...!!
Ang CreeeeeppppyyYYYYY!!! lakas mka PeeebeeebeeeTeeensss???!!
pero wala naman masama sa something NEW???...
bago lang sakin ung my sing along drama before sleepy time nuh..
so why not???. dba...

to make this shorter na talaga...
na i told na wala talaga akong gana magsulat... na di naman obvious...

"is it me or malabo na mata ko"
kasi feeling ko kahawig nya ung kawork ko na si mike...
but to make it sure pinakita ko sa kanila ung picture ni Pee Jay..
ang fuckkk!!.. napagkamalan nilang si Mike..! WTFFFFuuuCCCKkKKKK!!!
CrrrreeeeeeepppppYYyyyNeeeessssSSSS!!!!...

CHOW!. :P

Reflection

It’s been a long time since I last post a personal stuff here on my blog.
I don’t know, maybe I was just busy thinking of stuff other than writing.
Hell, if only I could give details about everything,
anything that’s happening to me the past few months,
but I think it’s too complicated and you won’t care anyways.
 This blog served as my journal. It reflects my emotions and what I’m going through.
Writing is my pastime, though I must admit,
I’m having issues expressing through it.
Being artsy is my thing too, but I don’t exactly know what’s happening to me and I can’t do it anymore.
 I’m lost so much concentration.
And I’m starting to lose my self on the course of hiding everything.
 I’m afraid I might be condemned, or I might be left alone, that’s why I’m keeping mum.
This is not another day for me. I know.
 Everything is so different, everything would be different.

- or maybe im just so drunk.. thats why im telling this stupid

 drama post wanna be.. haha...

So for my october....

naputad na ang pangarap ko na maghintay ng sunrise sa beach...

and its totally epic fail.. kasi di naman lumabas si sunrise..

but lumiwanag naman ang kalangitan..

i forgot... napapaligiran pala ng bundok kung saan lumalabas ang araw dito sa Subic.. haha...

so eto.. some pictures to murder!.. GrrRR!

kinollage ko nalang kasi ,... HEllo?? lasing nga ako.. mahirap magupload 1by1...

Xmas Countdown~

Ramdam na Ramdam nanamin ang Pasko...
so i bought xmas Lights and put it on our room...
sobrang ganda lang at colorfulll!.. ♥

We also made a countdown Video..
nasobrang Blooper!.. haha...

Hindi talaga kami xcited for xmas.. hahaha

Baby Angel~

Its been Months of Months nadin...
na hindi namin nakita si Roger...
after her resignation last February 2012....

Last Tues. oct.16...
he visited us from work...
dahil kukuha daw sya ng certificate from work...
and atlast nakita din namin sya
w/ her baby boy...
na sobrang cute,... ♥
and we took a picture of our batch mates...

Nakakamiss ung mga times,,
na kami kami yung magkakasama
sa work...
yung tawanan ang everything....

But unfortunately last fri. Oct.19...
Baby MJ past away... :(((
parang yung Tues.. lang,,,
hawak hawak lang namin ung baby...
parang nagpaalam lang sya samin...
dahil nasubaybayan namin sya...
nung nasa tyan palang sya ng mother nya...
May u rest in Peace Baby MJ...

Aparador Session...

First things first....
I didnt update my blog.. kasi wala ako sa mood...
my connection with Dun was over...
and hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit sya bitter....
nagusap naman kami ng maayos..
ehh bakit sya pa yung bitter...???!!
kainis talaga.. pero anyway.,..
ayoko na sya isipin... kasi his just a previous chapter of my life..
lets move forward... :)

So the fist day of the week....
i met this guy from my work...
actually online ko sya nameet as always...
Source ng kaPutahan at kalandian ang internet!...
kaya Go..! to Cyber-Crime Law.. (CHOZZZ!!!!)
so ayun nga nameet ko sya online...
twagin nalang natin syang..
Aparador #1.. kasi tago pa ang lola nyo...
from work to family... Linlangan period pa sya...
which i understand naman.. kasi its hard to
come out.. specially 21 kana,,,...
basta.. tama na yang... aparador issue na yan...
the main issue here is...
he Bang me!!...
na sobrang awkward....
kasi wala akong maramdaman!!...
as in i cant feel his medium size Cock.. inside my Glory Hole...
So napaisip ako???...
(Ganun na ba ako KALUWANG... or Maliit lang talaga Nota nya?)
napaisip talaga ako ng bongga....
feeling ko ganun nalang kalaki yung kay Dun??,.
at lumuwag ako ng Sobra.... Tsk.Tsk...
basta what i know about him.. is...
Type nya ko... kasi sabi nya...?!..
but HELLLOOO????!!! agad agad palit....
nahiya naman ako kay Dun...
basta im not expecting anything from Aparador #1...
basta hindi ko sya pinapansin sa work....
kasi oras na lapitan nya ko...!
ALAM na!... Beki to!...
Sobrang Halos lahat na ata ng workmates ko alam na Serena ako...
so delikado pag nakita kaming nagusap...
baka malaglag sya sa aparador!.. NAku!!...

The next guy here is...
Aparador #2....
His totally mateur na.. 30!!!!....
haha... But i swear... his such a Bear!!...
like this picture...

Sorry pero napaOA yung picture,,
make it more mature and fatter..
yun na sya.. hehe..
ok.. fine.. pakita ko na yung picture,,,
kasi Cute naman sya.. hehe,...

yan sya...

basta parang ganyan...
and i Swear.. the sex was so fucking Hot and intense,,,...
pulado pulado ako...
ang kati kasi nung beard nya...
i wonder why mature guys,,, is so fucking good in bed...
na naka 3 rounds kami....
basta it was so intense....

basta what i know about him is ...
same set up lang din sya tulad ni Aparador #1....
but maganda career ng isang to...???...
try ko kayang gawing regular.. Buddy...
baka... makajackpot ako... hehe..
besides.. kalbo sya.. w/ beard and big body structure...
my Ideal Guy in Bed,!! Hayyy... why not...
but his a lot older???!! AwwwwkwwwarrrddD!!??...
basta.. its hard to find guys this days...
if he wants my

Heart or my Hole??? :P

Cyber Crime Law

Since ngayon ko lang nalaman na naipasa na yung CyberCrime Law, syempre may say ako dun.

This may look lazy kasi hindi ko inexplain yung point ko, pero tama kayo guys. Nasabi niyo na lahat eh. May mga nabasa din ako na as in super tumpak. Rereplayan ko sana ng “Tama! Amen!”, eh nahiya ako kaya ni-like ko nalang. 

Anyway,

Dapat kasi pinagisipan talaga nila ‘to ng mabuti. Hindi lang yung basta may maipasa na batas. Hindi yung sila lang makikinabang. Pati yung mga consequences na madudulot nito. Sa pagkadami dami ng problema sa bansa natin ngayon, yan pa yung inuna. 

Siguro yung iba satin nagmumura na, nagwala, naglalabas ng sama ng loob tulad ko, (ang OA lang pero maypagkatama)pero pabayaan natin sila. Tignan lang natin kung ano na mangyayari ngayon. Let them. Tama sila, diba? Tsaka kahit anong paliwanag natin, hindi sila makikinig. Sa huli sino bang masusunod? Sila. Sino ba yung mag-gigiit ng gusto nila? Sila. Pabayaan natin. Ginusto nila yan eh.

Di nila alam kung ano yung sinimulan nila. Siguraduhin lang nila na hindi ‘to magsisimula ng World War III. Gusto ko pang mabuhay. Gusto ko pang makanuod ng UAAP ng live. Parang awa niyo na. ( exagge?:)) )

Pagdasal nalang natin ‘to. Best weapon ever. :>

(Hindi naman na wala akong pake sa ganito, nakakapagod na kasi. Merong mas importante bagay na kailangang isipin kaysa dito. Even though na may pagka importante din ‘to. Pero alam niyo yun. Nakakapagod na lang talaga. Magdadasal nalang ako.)

Dun & I

Too.. make this post short...

Dun and i is back on track again,...

were ok na.. and settled things out...

lets say iba na ung setup namin ngaun pag dating sa work...

but were still going out together.. and txting again.. hehe...

anyway naggygym na ko..

and its my last hope para magkalaman..

so im hoping this is it!!!!

so heres my pic nung nageemote ako.. hehe

Dedmahan?

After the Good Moments and Awesome s*x...
the next following day....
di na ko pinapansin ni Dun..
his like totally avoiding me!.. Damn!..
I dont know what happened???!
wala akong idea??... as in wala...
bigla nalang syang naging cold...
and it feels so rough...
parang (somebody that i used to know) lang... hehe...
di ko alam reason nya...
its been 3 days nadin.. and i ask him bakit
di na sya namamansin... (Stupid me!)
at ayun stress daw sya...
ayaw nya muna daw makipagusap... hay...
as in nahihirapan ako..
kasi parang wala namang reason para iwasan nya
ko... kasi ang saya namin nung last time na nagsama kami...

But about a minute ago habang nagtatype ako dito..
i txted him if naiirita na ba sya sakin...
he replied...

"Hindi naman , ayaw ko nalang kasi ng issue regarding satin...
medyo awkward na kasi tignan kung para sakin..
wag ka sana magalit sakin..."

and thats it!.. ayun lahat ng punot dulo ng lahat...
yung totoo.. oo medyo na iissue na nga kami sa work..
and its not good .. kasi ka stress un...
i dont know what to do...
if he want to keep it a secret whats happening between us...
para di kami naiisue...
hay... it feels so sad lang...

The Proposal

It was a normal day...
kaso yun akala ko...
the night was different...
kasama ko si Dun that night. w/ kim sa apartment ko...
we watched couple of movies..
and after watching bago sila umuwi....
pinakita ko na kay Dun yung video na ginawa ko sa kanya...

it was nice maganda naman naging reaction nya

w/ the video...

kaso hindi sya sumagot ng Yes or No.. kasi nga proposal video yun...

but he explained things na its too early pa etc.. di ko pa daw sya ganun kakilala...

basta its complicated... and its between me and him nalang..

i dont want to open it on my blog...

but one thing for sure...

my pagasa na maging kami..

it just need too take more time and effort...

basta sabi nya wag daw ako maging bitter sa kanya...

How come???!!

so after the proposal video etc...

umuwi na sya and babalik daw sya bukas...

around 9am or 10am...

so syempre masaya ako.. hehe...

The next day... nagising ako w/ janine and my housemates beside me...

its a secret bakit katabi ko na si Ja.. nung umaga...

my pinuntahan pa kasi ako after umuwi ni Dun around 1:00am..

its confidential kasi.. hehe...

dumating na si Dun ng 11am.. medyo late na sa usapan.. hehe,,,

nanood muna sila ng movie again w/ janine and aries..

and inutusan ako mamalengke para bumili ng pangluto...

at magluluto ako ng Sinigang na baboy...

After eating sinigang... Movie marathon ulit...

at nauwi na si janine ng 4pm at pumasok na din yung dalawa kong housemates...

so in other words kami nalang ni Dun yung my moment together...

syempre movie marathon nanaman kaming dalawa...

hanggang inantok na sya at nahiga na sa kama...

ako naman yung nagshower kasi naiinitan ako...

at inabutan ko nalang sya sa kama na nakahiga after ko magshower...

dinala ko naman ung portable DvD player.. sa kwarto kasi my gusto

ako panoorin... 

It was silent hanggang palapit ako ng palapit sa tabi ni dun...

hanngang sa kinulit ko na sya.. at tinabihan sa pagtulog...

ngunit kinukulit ko sya.. at kinikiliti...

actually hinahanap ko yung kiliti nya...

at nahanap ko yun sa neck nya.. haha...

hannga sa dinaganan ko sya para kilitiin.. hahaha,,

it was fun,... ang kulit kasi ng tawa nya,.,

at ginagamit ko yung ilong ko at ung baba ko ng my Gote...

para kilitiin sya.. hanggang sa mga labi ko na yung ginamit ko...

Hannggang sa.... Everything was History. hehe...

it was Fun.. sobrang saya ng Moment namin.... together...

Syempre napagod kami at ngutom..

at pinainit ko ulit yung sinigang na natira kanina...

para kainin namin...

nagpicturan pa kaming dalawa while eating..

and after kumain picturan ulit kami together... ♥

Napagod na kami kakapicture..

kaya nahiga na kami at pinanood ko sya ulit ng bala...

hanngang sa nakatulugan ko na sya...

Nagising ako sa haplos ni dun sa aking braso..

around 11pm na yata.. yun..

at uuwi na daw sya...

tumayo agad ako at hinatid sya sa pinto...

at isang mahigpit na yakap ang nadama ko mula sa kanya..

bago sya umalis... ♥

masaya ako kung anong meron samin ni Dun ngayon...

kahit di pa kami official couples...

kahit na Unofficially Yours palang...

masaya naman ako sa tuwing kasama ko sya...

his different... and i hope sya,, na... :)

Week End

It was Sat. night..
after work i decided to hang out w/ my colleauges...
@ Magic Lagoon.... minsan ko nalang din kasi sila makabonding..
so why not.. spend sometime w/ those guys.. hehe..

After.. hanging out w/ my colleagues...

i headed to harbor point subic.. to watch movie "Paranorman"

w/ Dun and mam. I.. 

it was fun and the movie was good but Touching...

and after the movie we decided to go home nalang...

the night was not really special...

but i got some moments.. padin naman w/ Dun...

so for me.. it was a great night.. hehe...

The Following day... Sunday afternoon...

I invited Dun last night .. Sat.? 

to grab some pizza @ SNR...

and we invited Mam I nadin.. Kim, his bestfriend..

and Melvin.. 

but we decided to eat the large whole of pizza..

@ Magic Lagoon.. kasi it was a nice place to hang out..

plus Inuman nadin dun after murdering the pizza...

its nice hanging out w/ them and Dun...

its a very very Happy Night...

those guys are funny...

and everything is great...

The next Morning...

Monday... still my Dayoff...

i decided na matulog nalang maghapon...

kasi wala din naman ako magawa...

and hihintayin ko pa si janine..

pag dating ng hapon..

to grab some KFC bucket Feast...

dumating na yung hapon,,

then me and janine.. headed to harbor point muna

to bought some things at Watson...

and his brothers Gym equipment,,..

the we headed to KFC @ SM City Olongapo...

while waiting for our order kasi take out...

because sa bahay na namin kakainin..

w/ the rest of  my housemates.. Yuan and Aris...

nakita namin sila Mike, Jhane and Pong.. 

kawork namin ni Janine..

so we grab a picture w/ them nadin...

kaso si Jhane na ung kumuha kaya wala sya sa picture..

So as soon as we get our order,,

we headed back home and fill our appetite...

the night was almost perfect.. kaso..

something bad happen..

it was money issue...

basta i dont want to talk about it..

kasi ayoko nagpapastress sa pera...

basta na Trauma kami ni Janine about it...

and hinatid namin si janine...

at nakita ko pa si Dun..

somwhere na kaninan near my street.. w/ his workmates..

and my weekend was Done...

The Wild One pt.2

after the movie...
we headed to my place and decided to
have a drink w/ her friend kim...
who invited him na maginuman daw...
so i said bakit di nalang sa place ko...
tutal wala naman ako kasama...
so we had a drink at my place...
ininum namin yung GSM blue...
as usual specially kapag gipit ka.. haha...
para mabilis ung tama...
after few drinks and naubos namin
yung isang bote...
i was a little bit tipsy nadin that time..
and i think he was not...
si kim ayun bagsak na sa kama at nahiga
na sa kwarto...

kami nalang ni dun ung naiwan dun sala...
i showed him my favorite book and my artworks...
it was silent and i cant even remember na totally what happen...
basta it was so fast...
pinuntahan nya saglit si kim at sinara nya ung pinto ng kwarto
nung paglabas na paglabas nya... sabay pinatay
nya yung ilaw...
at suddenly he run towards me and
everything gone wild...
it was intense...
one of the intense sex i ever had...
it was wild and totally intense...
and i swear im drunk...
so sobrang nasabayan ko din ung
tension between us...
agad agad kong kinuha ung condom
sa wallet ko...
at sa sobrang pagmamadali ko hirap na hirap akong
buksan yung wrapper nung condom...
hanggang sa ginupit ko nalang ito at pinilit na ilabas sa lalagyan...
i pushed him on the floor...
and everything was history...
i was so happy kasi na achieved ko din yung goal ko
na magpabottom sa ka nya that night...

after the intense wild interaction...
natulog na ko sa kwarto...
at i already forgot the wrapper of condom duon sa kusina...
and nadatnan ni yuan yung wrapper nung nauwi na sya...
sobrang nakakahiya pero sa akin nya nalang yun sinabi
dahil nakakahiya din naman kay dun... HAHAHA!...

around 7am na nung umuwi si dun,.,,
and i gave him my first 1 out of 90 quotes na ibibigay ko sa kanya
before he left... and ngiti nalang yung nasukli nya sa binigay ko...
it was cloud 9... para akong teenager...
this is not so me... pati ako naninibago na sa mga effort na
ginagawa ko for a guy...
but this is good...
im really getting mature enough when it comes to love and relationship.. ♥


HERE'S PART 1
http://bakitchan.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-wild-one.html

The Wild One pt.1

It was tuesday...
i wake up around 11:00am...
my nareceive akong txt from dunhill...
yung guy na madalas sa mga latest post ko..
from cuddle to 90days and 90 letters blog post ko...

"ui gising kana ba? samahan mo ko ng Bataan huh.. :)"

i remember??! i ask him nga pala yesterday na kung gusto nya samahan
ko sya sa Bataan for his Loan at PAGIBIG....
hindi ko expected na tuloy ngayun yun...
kasi he didnt reply naman nung tinanong ko sya if sasamahan ko sya...

so i replied na kakagising ko lang...
and i txt him if what time ba...
he replied naman na past 12pm daw...
shocks! ang init non...

what i did is diretsyo sa banyo to take a Deep Shower....
and after 30 minutes na pagliligo...
i fixed my self up...
and play some music muna.. para good vibes...

i txted him if san kami kita and he said sa terminal na daw sa rotonda..
and i headed naman na sa rotonda around 1:00pm...
umupo ako sa waiting area and hinintay ko sya dun...
as i expected palagi naman syang late.. hehe..
nasanay naman na ko.. hehe... buti nalang nakaktawa ung
palabas sa TV kaya medyo nalibang din naman ako....

after 30 minutes of waiting... dumating na sya...
and umupo kami for a while.. waiting hannang sa madami ng nakasakay
sa bus.. then sumkay na kami sa bus.... and matutulog muna daw sya...
kasi wala din syang masyadong tulog...
so sabi ko matulog na sya... at ako na magbabayad papunta...
and sya nalang pabalik...

after 30 minutes na byahe nakarating na kami sa Dinalupihan Bataan...
and naglakad na kami papunta dun sa loob ng Some University kasi..
dun nakapwesto ung nagiisue ng cash card for PAgIBIG loans...
after 20 minutes siguro natapos nadin... and we headed home na...
wala kaming masakyang bus kaya sa Jeep na kami sumakay...
medyo stress kasi yung katabi ko jeep...
natutulog kaya todo head bang sya sa balikat ko w/c is
really uncomfortable...

habang nasa jeep he asked me what daw showing ngayon...
sabi ko possession, amoroza, katy perry and ung isa comedy...
sabi nya watch daw kami... and kung my pera pa daw ba ako...
ehh. saktong gipit din ako that time..
so i said wala... pero pede dagdagan nya nalang...
bayaran ko pag my cash na ako...
and he said yes... so we decided to watch a movie and
ung Possession ung papanoodin namin...

Nang nakarating na kami sa olongapo city...
uuwi muna daw sya saglit... kukunin nya daw ung Nova na naiwan nya
sa kanila.. para daw kainin namin sa cinema...
and hintayin ko daw sya sa 7/11 dun sa bandang palengkeng Bago...

after 5 minutes nakabalik nadin sya.. and bumili kami dun 7/11 ng snacks
and drinks para tipid at di na kami bibili dun sa Food Court ng cinema....
and nakarating na kami sa Harbor Point Subic and we watch the Possession...

Hindi ko alam kung matatakot ba ako or matatawa ako dun sa palabas..
or sa kasama ko... kasi pag dun na sa takutan scene...
nadtatakip na sya ng mata or pag nagugulat sya... ewan ko ba at
kung sino yung tinataboy nya... ang dami kong tawa... HAHAHA..!


TO BE CONTINUED....

PART 2
http://bakitchan.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-wild-one-pt2.html

Sunday Off

Yesterday was Sunday and it was fun...

we watch Coco Martin @ harbor point mall...

Luckily we see him closer kahit papano...

sobrang siksikan lang.. ang daming tao...

super hot and cute nya lang sa personal...

kaso a little upset kasi di kami nakapagpapicture w/ him...

but happy parin we seen him in person...

After Watching Coco's mall tour..
we headed to cinemas to take some pics...
it was awesome.. sobrang saya lang...
actually madami kaming pics that day...
but most of it.. di pa naupload....
we headed to Jollibee kasi puno sa KFC...
i love chicken...
and almost 20minutes kami nakatayo sa Jobi,,,
kasi puno lahat ng tables...
we are so desperate... gutom na kami...
plus sa haba ng pila sa counter at sa mga
natatarantang stuff ng Fast Food....
it was so disappointing kasi putol putol pa order namin
like paisa isa dumadating...
sobrang badtrip talaga...
but sa sobrang taranta ng crew...
binigyan nya kami ng Large Fries and sundae...
Sobrang overwhelmed lang...
ang sarap kaya ng FREE!!!...

after kainin...
we headed to SM.. too check out the 3day SALE promo..
and luckily i saw my Beki colleagues...
and i took a picture w/ them...
besides they are my school mates...

the day was so fun...
exhausted yes... kasi kakalakad...
and my night was complete...
and i took a midnight sleep...

The End

90 days & 90 letters

“Happiness is a byproduct of an effort to make someone else happy"

The Guy from my last post entitled Cuddle...
i think his a game changer and i find him special to me...
I dont know... hindi naman na siguro ako teenager
para mafall nalang ng basta basta...
this one? i think s different...
Sobrang sensible nya lang...
i cant sharply read his actions...
its still predictable but...
hindi sya showy... in other words..
gusto nya naman pero pakipot pa...
pero sya din naman yung nagpapakita ng interest...
its different from other guys i met...
na alam ko na agad yung nasa isip nila...
and 99% accurately na tama ako..
itong isang to... God!... my second thought ako palagi...
which is a little bit challenging for me..

anyway.. the main story here is nageefort na ko...
hindi pa kami.. coz its much better to know each other..
at wag padalos dalos sa nararamdaman...

last thur. nakarecieve ako ng txt quote from him...

" You Know SpongeBob?"

Kasi kahit na bobo si Patrick.. Mahal parin nya

Kahit Galit at ayaw sa kanya ni Squidward ...
Mahalaga parin ito sa kanya..

Kahit alam nyang pera lang nasa utak ni Mr.Crab
Ginagalang padin nya...

How I wish to Find my Spongebob someday...
Yung tipong sa kabila ng kahinaan ko. Mamahalin padin ako.. ^_^

........

So i surprised him the next day..
i was planning to gave him condom...
para sa naughty part naming dalawa..
plus bumili nadin ako ng pineapple chunks...
hehe... para kunyari ako si spongebob...

taliwas ung sched naming dalawa so its hard for us to meet everyday...
that day na ibibigay ko ung pineapple and condom sa kanya..
magulo pa ung sched nya... at wala pa sa sya sa work....

so i decided to go home nalang....
and i texted him what time pasok nya..
and 6pm daw,, eh kakauwi ko lang at sya kadarating lang sa work...
so i headed back to work para iabot sa kanya yung surprise ko...
kahit na tinatamad ako ... pero nung tinanung ko sya...
if balik pa ba ako jan... he replied na akong bahala...
and its a sign na gusto nya kong pumunta....
so i headed back to work...
and his waiting for me dun sa hallway...

kinuha ko yung kaliwang kamay nya...
and patago kong inabot yung condom.. kasi baka my makakita.. hehe..
matamis na ngiti lang yung nakita ko sa muka nya.,,
na natawa ng konti... haha. kasi naman sa isip isip nya
bumalik pa ko ng work para iabot lang yung condom???!!!

"Ito na yun???"
sabi nya...

"Hindi nuh... diba masarap nga yung dadalin ko"
sabi ko...

agad kong nilabas yung laman ng bag ko...
at inabot sa kanya yung lata ng pineapple chunks...

"Ohhh... Galing kay Spongebob.. para di kana masyadong magdrama sa text"
sabi ko...

"Adik ka talaga.."
sabi nya...

makikita mo yung ngiti nya... saka ung ngiti ng mga mata nya sa ginawa ko....
yun ang effort...
I want him to feel na special sya....
na my taong ititreat sya as a special person...

pumasok kami sa pantry to talk a while,.,..
mga kung anu ano lang....
tapos nagpaalam na sya at papasok pa sya...
kaya umalis nadin ako....

.......

yung gabing yun....
my naisip ako....
isang malupit na plano....

its called "3 MONTHS RULE"
basically 90 days RULE...
bibigyan ko sya ng 90 quotes in  paper in 90 days...
mga inpirational quotes and mga banats...
too keep him smile everytime na papasok sya....

so i texted him kung what no. ng locker nya...
kaso my kasama daw sya sa locker nya...
so my plan change na ihuhulog ko yung letter dun sa locker nya...

so i gave my locker no. na lang ...
bubuksan nya yun everyday bago sya pumasok...
at iniiwan ko dun yung quotes na nasa paper...
pag umuuwi ako....

Yes its a big effort for 90 days...
but i just want him to feel special....
kung maging kami man...
tadhana na bhala jan. hehe...

Cuddle pt.2

i was about to sleep na..
kaso di ako mkatulog besides him...
i dont know what will happen..
im a bit nervous...
di na ko bata.. i know what will happen if
you sleep w/ the guy you like besides you...
alam na...

so i whisper to his ears...
coz i know his not sleeping...
pinakiraramdaman nya ko.. hehe
i said..

"may sasabihin ako sayo"
...
"ano yun??"
...
"do you like me... kasi.. I like you but for now im looking forward to be your friend.."
...
he replied..
"ahmm... mas ok for now kung friends... but i like you"...
...
i was flattered seriously?!! pachicks kaya ako...
"ahhh... ok"

.......

so di na kami nakatulog...
nagusap nalang kami about mutual friends... family... personality etc..
sobrang totoo nya lang...
there's no adds on sa lahat ng kwento nya...
its just him...
most of the stories his telling was his failures and embarassment...
and most also are positives about him...
seriously walang guy na magsasabi ng mga embarassing and
failure moments nya... basta basta right...
basta ang dami namin pinagusapan....
we were enjoying talking too much...
hanggang sa nanahimik na kami....
and sabi nya nilalamig daw sya...
pero ung totoo ako naiinitan na??!!
kahit umuulan.. ang init padin...
so i dont know if gusto lang nya yakapin sya???
kaya kumuha ako ng kumot... to cover him...
kaso nilalamig padin daw sya...
so i asked him na...

"Gusto mo.. ihug kita??"
....
"Ikaw Bahala?"
...
i knew it,,, gusto lang talaga mayakap nito... haha...
(PBB TEENS)

so dumating na kami sa lambingan session at tuloy usap usap ulit...
hanggang sa pati mga buhok buhok sa katawan napagusapan nadin namin...
kasi parehas kaing balbon...
and i was telling him na tumutubo na ung chest hair ko...
and ayun meron din daw sya...
pero inaahit nya...
inangat nya yung damit nya...
hawakan ko daw ung chest nya... na inaahit nya...
at ayun ang kati!!!... kasi tumutubo na...
at pinipilit nya yung kamay ko na ihug sya...
ang kati talaga..haha...
patu bandang sa puson nya my mga tumutubo nadin...
and his holding my hands to touch does itchy hairs...
hanggang sa hinila nya pababa yung hands ko sa *toot* nya...

"ANo yun????"
....
"haha... ano pa ba??"
...
"Sabi ko ano yun.. parang wala naman??"
..
"ahh.. wala pala huh???!!! eto ka!.. HAHAHA"
...
"adik ka??!! seryoso ka...?? now? dito? sa kabilang kwarto lang sila oh?"
...
"oo dito.. now na.."
...
"adik ka!!! ang naughty mo pala! hehe"
...
"Looks can be deceiving.. haha..."

(AND THE REST WAS HISTORY)

after the Boom Boom part... actually nag end up lang sa Blow Job To Hand Job...
kasi nga mahirap na baka mahuli pa kami... si JANINE??!!!
GOsssshhhhhh i cant imagine??!!!!

i was expecting na after ng Boom Boom moments... ay uuwi na sya?
like those other guys i make Love with... na after ng Boom part...
ayun,.. uuwi na sila.. :((
but this one is different... he stayed at my side...
and sleep... we sleep together hugging w/ each other and holding each other hands... ♥
it was different... and i hope this is really different...

It was aroung 4:00am nung ginsing nya ko..
uuwi na daw sya... kasi my pasok pa sya....
and thats it... hinatid ko sya sa labas hanggang makasakay sya
ng trycle... and my night was AMAZING!!...
it was Great!... hehe ♥

Temper

Today... another bad day..
im so fucked up...
i lost my temper again w/ doreimon....
Why do i always lost my temper w/ that guy...
kakainis....

Seriously nasaktan ako sa sinabi nya..
never nya kasi ako tnawag na ganun...
yung GAY word in tagalog version...
sapul Ego ko...
para akong sinampal...
much better if minura nya nalang ako,...
kasi the way that he said it...
parang papa ko yung nagsalita...
so nawala ako ng sandali sa sarili ko...
and everything na gnawa sakin ng dad ko...
nagflash back.... stress...
so di ko na namalayan na tumulo na yung
luha ko... hay....

kaya ayaw ni janine na nasstress ako...
because she knows my past....
pag nasstress ako...
ang dami ko naiisip...
all my problems in the past...
in one whole package... naiisip ko...
so i get sad.. dramatic and everything...

kaya kaysa ano pa magawa ko...
because im loosing my temper...
i decided to go home nalang...
para wala ng gulo...
but di ko talaga napigilan
kahit na nilibang ko na sarili ko at home..
i txt him w/ bad words....
i even call his cell...
actually those words... means nothing...
compare sa nafeel ko...
yung mga words na binitiwan ko...
wala yun sa naramdaman ko how he called me
GAY!... infront of other people...

i really want to kill him...
kasi his making me stress again...
hay....
pinapahiya nya ko sa ibang tao...
he treat me like nothing....
he doesnt trust me...
his not interested w/ my life...
i feel his using me for something .. that i dont know...
so why should i stick w/ a friend like that...
madami naman akong friends...
na mas nakakaintindi sakin... so why should i
stay w/ someone that doesnt listen...
w/ no concern... what a fake.... hay...
kung my choice lang ako...
para di sya makita... or malipat ako ng project,,,
mwala lang sa paningin nya...

bakit ba hindi nya nararamdaman
yung galit sa kanya ng tao...
bat kaylangan nya pa magtanong...
wla ba syang sense of humor...
wla ba syang pakiramdam...
ganun ba kamanhid...
hindi ba sya nagiisip...
bara bara nalang ba sya palagi sa actions nya...
so WHY?!!!
WHY are you making me stressss!!!!!!....

Cuddle pt.1

A good relationship starts ba w/ a good sex fo the first night
you been together...?
Does sex should always comes first ba when it comes to
same sex relationships...
ganun ba talaga batayan ngayon?
sex comes first?


Last night i got a date...
his a guy from our company but in a different project...
we have a lot of common friends..
so medyo di ako masyadong nagkekwento w/ my friends
between us...
kasi mahirap na maissue... dba?
anyway ayun lumabas kaming dalawa...
it was unexpected kasi nung morning kachat ko lang sya sa fb..
then yun his going to SM daw to buy beanie aka bonet...
I ask him if gusto nya samahan ko sya..
kasi nga wala sya kasama.. plus.. wala din naman ako
gagawin that time..
So we ended up that night..
sinamahan ko sya at Harbor Point and we headed to
Penshoppe store kaso wala kaming nagustuhan na beanie..
so we ended up in bench store and we were lucky kasi SALE sila..
and after kakatingin ng bonet.. ayun nakapili nadin kami...
plus he bought to clothes nadin kasi almost half ung dicount per tees...

After malling galore...
we decided to watch movie "Total Recall"
it was fun.. lalo na pag nagdidikit ung braso namin..
sa sandalan nung chair.. hehe.. kinikilabutan ako...
kasi nga mabilis ako ginawin...
so after movie i was expecting na uuwi na kami...
but he said na he wants to visit my place daw..
kaya we headed at my place...
dun namin naabutan sila janine,zhane,yuan,aris...
and he gets along naman.. kasi di naman sya ganun ka shy type..
so ang ending feel at home sya.. hehe...

after ilang hours after we ate dinner...
inaantok na daw sya...
so i asked him if he wants to come home na...
kasi my pasok pa sya ng 8am... so baka mapuyat pa sya if
he stays long at my place...
but he insist na magstay pa daw sya..
pero halata namang antok na sya or ( antok antukan??) hehe
so nilabas ko yung isang matress sa kwarto para
dun kami sa sala matulog kasi kahut papano...
ilang padin sya w/ my housemates...
but i told him na gising sya ng 1am kasi my
pasok pa sya ng 8am...
so ako nadin nagset ng Alarm clock nya...
and ayun nakatulog na sya,...

after almost 2 hours ata?? cant remember,,,
nagring na yung alarm ng cp nya,,
but pinatay nya lang yun...
and i asked him if uuwi na ba sya...
he replied na samin na daw sya matulog...
maaga nalang daw sya gigising...

so natulog nadin ako besides him kasi medyo late
nadin plus ang dami kong ginwa that day...



TO BE CONTINUED....

ERE~

Di ko alam bakit ang mulala nya...
dapat di na sinasabi sa kanya yung
mga ganong bagay...
yung time na iniwan nya ko sa ere...
alam nyo na...
si doreimon.. hehe...
mukang tanga kasi dba...
bat mo pa sasabihin sa taong
mangiiwan...
para ano??! samahan ka ulit ?
how pathetic of me dba...
pero nasabi ko na ehh.. kabadtrip tuloy...
that Bitch!...
hay... yung totoo naiilang nadin
kasi ako kasama sya..
kasi nga ang akward na dba..
kaylangan paba sabihin sa kanya
na direct to the point na nangiwan sya sa ere...
hindi nya ba narealize un???
bakit medyo ilag na din ako sa kanya...

actually nakamove on na ko eh...
my mga kasa kasama nakong iba...
so bat eto nanaman sya.
dikit na naman ng dikit...
tapos babawi???
san pa... sira na nga lahat...
di na tayo nagkakasundo...
kaya much better if sumama sya dun kay reyzhel..
kasi muka naman mas enjoy sya dun...
after all my efforts para maging caring and true friend...
ganun nalang...
iwanan na lang ba ako...
pero nakagetover na ko sa iwanan moment na yan...
kaso ung pride ko dba.. parang binato sakin...
kasi nga nalaman nya na yung reason...
na may sama ako ng loob sa kanya...
na hindi man lang nya narealize??????
ANG MULALA!! talaga... naku!.. tsk.tsk...

KJ (love StrucK)

yung akala nyo kayo na till the end..
yung kayo na soulmates...
yung sya na si destiny...
yung kayo talaga ment to be..
yung almost perfect love...
yung ganung akala...
....................................

but one mistake can break it all apart..
and one thing is left...
a heartbreak...

its a story of  Love..mistake.. trust.. but its all about Love ♥...

a story of my two special friends...
and they are one sweet couple...
i seen them together w/ shimmer in there eyes...
yung kislap sa mata nila everytime magkasama silang dalawa...
yung smiles nila full of love everytime they talk...
makikita mo talaga sa kanila yung true love...
yung true love na hindi mo basta basta makikita
sa ordinary couples...

but after 5 years together...
may mga happenings na hindi inaasahan...
lets say its a mistake to make it formal...
naging unfaithful yung isa...
and the other one finds out..
and turns out into WAR!...

based on my opinion...
its a world full of wrong...
walang perfect na tao..
everyone make mistakes..
nobody's perfect...

but kahit sino namang typical partner
magagalit sa unfaithfulness nung isa..
its a natural behavior ng kahit sinong normal na tao..
hindi natin sya pede sisihin kung may nasabi
man sya or nagawang masama...
kasi kinain na sya ng anger...
galit na hindi dahil sa he/she hates you...
his angry because he loves you...
and his angry ano ba nagawa nya para maging
unfaithful ung isa...
nagkulang ba sya...
is it not enough??...
his angry why you do such a thing...
kahit sino magagalit sa ginawa nung isa...

WHY?!! (thats the first question)
.......................

but i know you guys really love each other...
walang makakasira jan...
maraming pagsubok sa relasyon..
and i think this one is tough...
oo mahirap but its a challenge na
pag nalampasan nyo it will make your relationship
more stronger and better...
if you guys still love each other...
you can get through this mess...

i know at this moment...
masakit padin..
but ones na huminahon na ang lahat...
im sure you will realize every good times you been through...

so dont give up everything...
your job..
your carrier..
your life..

because ones you gave it up..
it will make you look weaker!!!

walang perfect na relasyon...
remember all the good times you had..

yung 1st kiss..
yung 1st monthsary..
yung 1st anniversary...
yung 1st flowers and chocolates...
yung 1st time na sinabi nyo sa isat isa yung word na "I LOVE YOU"

alalahanin nyo lahat ng yun...
lahat ng challenges you been through..
pano kayo nagkakilala...
yung moment na sinagot ka nya..
yung moment na sinagot mo sya...
yung moment na naging kayo...
Think about it...

WALANG PERFECT NA RELATIONSHIP... :)

Colleagues

last saturday, aug.18,2012...

was my colleagues mates birthday..

and grabe after many months...

lang ulit kami nagbonding w/ my

engineering classmates...

it was so fun...

full of happines... sobrang namiss ko talaga cla...

its around 6pm ng narecieve ko ung messge nila from

fcebook...

and yun agad agd ako pumunta sa lagoon..

for shot...

naka 3 kaming Antonov and 3 GSM Blue...

i ws really drunk... but the moments and happiness

that night.. hinding hindi ko makakalimutan..

I really miss them and yun sila 1 semester

nalang graduate na... Engineers!!...

im so proud of them...

ang hirap ng engineering noh!..

SUICIDAL!!!

so sobrang stream naman ako sa facebook

to check our pictures.. during college days...

hay sobrang kamiss lang,,

but im happy kung saan at istado ko ngayun,,,

coz im happy and contented..