Dun & I

Too.. make this post short...

Dun and i is back on track again,...

were ok na.. and settled things out...

lets say iba na ung setup namin ngaun pag dating sa work...

but were still going out together.. and txting again.. hehe...

anyway naggygym na ko..

and its my last hope para magkalaman..

so im hoping this is it!!!!

so heres my pic nung nageemote ako.. hehe

Dedmahan?

After the Good Moments and Awesome s*x...
the next following day....
di na ko pinapansin ni Dun..
his like totally avoiding me!.. Damn!..
I dont know what happened???!
wala akong idea??... as in wala...
bigla nalang syang naging cold...
and it feels so rough...
parang (somebody that i used to know) lang... hehe...
di ko alam reason nya...
its been 3 days nadin.. and i ask him bakit
di na sya namamansin... (Stupid me!)
at ayun stress daw sya...
ayaw nya muna daw makipagusap... hay...
as in nahihirapan ako..
kasi parang wala namang reason para iwasan nya
ko... kasi ang saya namin nung last time na nagsama kami...

But about a minute ago habang nagtatype ako dito..
i txted him if naiirita na ba sya sakin...
he replied...

"Hindi naman , ayaw ko nalang kasi ng issue regarding satin...
medyo awkward na kasi tignan kung para sakin..
wag ka sana magalit sakin..."

and thats it!.. ayun lahat ng punot dulo ng lahat...
yung totoo.. oo medyo na iissue na nga kami sa work..
and its not good .. kasi ka stress un...
i dont know what to do...
if he want to keep it a secret whats happening between us...
para di kami naiisue...
hay... it feels so sad lang...

The Proposal

It was a normal day...
kaso yun akala ko...
the night was different...
kasama ko si Dun that night. w/ kim sa apartment ko...
we watched couple of movies..
and after watching bago sila umuwi....
pinakita ko na kay Dun yung video na ginawa ko sa kanya...

it was nice maganda naman naging reaction nya

w/ the video...

kaso hindi sya sumagot ng Yes or No.. kasi nga proposal video yun...

but he explained things na its too early pa etc.. di ko pa daw sya ganun kakilala...

basta its complicated... and its between me and him nalang..

i dont want to open it on my blog...

but one thing for sure...

my pagasa na maging kami..

it just need too take more time and effort...

basta sabi nya wag daw ako maging bitter sa kanya...

How come???!!

so after the proposal video etc...

umuwi na sya and babalik daw sya bukas...

around 9am or 10am...

so syempre masaya ako.. hehe...

The next day... nagising ako w/ janine and my housemates beside me...

its a secret bakit katabi ko na si Ja.. nung umaga...

my pinuntahan pa kasi ako after umuwi ni Dun around 1:00am..

its confidential kasi.. hehe...

dumating na si Dun ng 11am.. medyo late na sa usapan.. hehe,,,

nanood muna sila ng movie again w/ janine and aries..

and inutusan ako mamalengke para bumili ng pangluto...

at magluluto ako ng Sinigang na baboy...

After eating sinigang... Movie marathon ulit...

at nauwi na si janine ng 4pm at pumasok na din yung dalawa kong housemates...

so in other words kami nalang ni Dun yung my moment together...

syempre movie marathon nanaman kaming dalawa...

hanggang inantok na sya at nahiga na sa kama...

ako naman yung nagshower kasi naiinitan ako...

at inabutan ko nalang sya sa kama na nakahiga after ko magshower...

dinala ko naman ung portable DvD player.. sa kwarto kasi my gusto

ako panoorin... 

It was silent hanggang palapit ako ng palapit sa tabi ni dun...

hanngang sa kinulit ko na sya.. at tinabihan sa pagtulog...

ngunit kinukulit ko sya.. at kinikiliti...

actually hinahanap ko yung kiliti nya...

at nahanap ko yun sa neck nya.. haha...

hannga sa dinaganan ko sya para kilitiin.. hahaha,,

it was fun,... ang kulit kasi ng tawa nya,.,

at ginagamit ko yung ilong ko at ung baba ko ng my Gote...

para kilitiin sya.. hanggang sa mga labi ko na yung ginamit ko...

Hannggang sa.... Everything was History. hehe...

it was Fun.. sobrang saya ng Moment namin.... together...

Syempre napagod kami at ngutom..

at pinainit ko ulit yung sinigang na natira kanina...

para kainin namin...

nagpicturan pa kaming dalawa while eating..

and after kumain picturan ulit kami together... ♥

Napagod na kami kakapicture..

kaya nahiga na kami at pinanood ko sya ulit ng bala...

hanngang sa nakatulugan ko na sya...

Nagising ako sa haplos ni dun sa aking braso..

around 11pm na yata.. yun..

at uuwi na daw sya...

tumayo agad ako at hinatid sya sa pinto...

at isang mahigpit na yakap ang nadama ko mula sa kanya..

bago sya umalis... ♥

masaya ako kung anong meron samin ni Dun ngayon...

kahit di pa kami official couples...

kahit na Unofficially Yours palang...

masaya naman ako sa tuwing kasama ko sya...

his different... and i hope sya,, na... :)

The Wild One pt.2

after the movie...
we headed to my place and decided to
have a drink w/ her friend kim...
who invited him na maginuman daw...
so i said bakit di nalang sa place ko...
tutal wala naman ako kasama...
so we had a drink at my place...
ininum namin yung GSM blue...
as usual specially kapag gipit ka.. haha...
para mabilis ung tama...
after few drinks and naubos namin
yung isang bote...
i was a little bit tipsy nadin that time..
and i think he was not...
si kim ayun bagsak na sa kama at nahiga
na sa kwarto...

kami nalang ni dun ung naiwan dun sala...
i showed him my favorite book and my artworks...
it was silent and i cant even remember na totally what happen...
basta it was so fast...
pinuntahan nya saglit si kim at sinara nya ung pinto ng kwarto
nung paglabas na paglabas nya... sabay pinatay
nya yung ilaw...
at suddenly he run towards me and
everything gone wild...
it was intense...
one of the intense sex i ever had...
it was wild and totally intense...
and i swear im drunk...
so sobrang nasabayan ko din ung
tension between us...
agad agad kong kinuha ung condom
sa wallet ko...
at sa sobrang pagmamadali ko hirap na hirap akong
buksan yung wrapper nung condom...
hanggang sa ginupit ko nalang ito at pinilit na ilabas sa lalagyan...
i pushed him on the floor...
and everything was history...
i was so happy kasi na achieved ko din yung goal ko
na magpabottom sa ka nya that night...

after the intense wild interaction...
natulog na ko sa kwarto...
at i already forgot the wrapper of condom duon sa kusina...
and nadatnan ni yuan yung wrapper nung nauwi na sya...
sobrang nakakahiya pero sa akin nya nalang yun sinabi
dahil nakakahiya din naman kay dun... HAHAHA!...

around 7am na nung umuwi si dun,.,,
and i gave him my first 1 out of 90 quotes na ibibigay ko sa kanya
before he left... and ngiti nalang yung nasukli nya sa binigay ko...
it was cloud 9... para akong teenager...
this is not so me... pati ako naninibago na sa mga effort na
ginagawa ko for a guy...
but this is good...
im really getting mature enough when it comes to love and relationship.. ♥


HERE'S PART 1
http://bakitchan.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-wild-one.html

90 days & 90 letters

“Happiness is a byproduct of an effort to make someone else happy"

The Guy from my last post entitled Cuddle...
i think his a game changer and i find him special to me...
I dont know... hindi naman na siguro ako teenager
para mafall nalang ng basta basta...
this one? i think s different...
Sobrang sensible nya lang...
i cant sharply read his actions...
its still predictable but...
hindi sya showy... in other words..
gusto nya naman pero pakipot pa...
pero sya din naman yung nagpapakita ng interest...
its different from other guys i met...
na alam ko na agad yung nasa isip nila...
and 99% accurately na tama ako..
itong isang to... God!... my second thought ako palagi...
which is a little bit challenging for me..

anyway.. the main story here is nageefort na ko...
hindi pa kami.. coz its much better to know each other..
at wag padalos dalos sa nararamdaman...

last thur. nakarecieve ako ng txt quote from him...

" You Know SpongeBob?"

Kasi kahit na bobo si Patrick.. Mahal parin nya

Kahit Galit at ayaw sa kanya ni Squidward ...
Mahalaga parin ito sa kanya..

Kahit alam nyang pera lang nasa utak ni Mr.Crab
Ginagalang padin nya...

How I wish to Find my Spongebob someday...
Yung tipong sa kabila ng kahinaan ko. Mamahalin padin ako.. ^_^

........

So i surprised him the next day..
i was planning to gave him condom...
para sa naughty part naming dalawa..
plus bumili nadin ako ng pineapple chunks...
hehe... para kunyari ako si spongebob...

taliwas ung sched naming dalawa so its hard for us to meet everyday...
that day na ibibigay ko ung pineapple and condom sa kanya..
magulo pa ung sched nya... at wala pa sa sya sa work....

so i decided to go home nalang....
and i texted him what time pasok nya..
and 6pm daw,, eh kakauwi ko lang at sya kadarating lang sa work...
so i headed back to work para iabot sa kanya yung surprise ko...
kahit na tinatamad ako ... pero nung tinanung ko sya...
if balik pa ba ako jan... he replied na akong bahala...
and its a sign na gusto nya kong pumunta....
so i headed back to work...
and his waiting for me dun sa hallway...

kinuha ko yung kaliwang kamay nya...
and patago kong inabot yung condom.. kasi baka my makakita.. hehe..
matamis na ngiti lang yung nakita ko sa muka nya.,,
na natawa ng konti... haha. kasi naman sa isip isip nya
bumalik pa ko ng work para iabot lang yung condom???!!!

"Ito na yun???"
sabi nya...

"Hindi nuh... diba masarap nga yung dadalin ko"
sabi ko...

agad kong nilabas yung laman ng bag ko...
at inabot sa kanya yung lata ng pineapple chunks...

"Ohhh... Galing kay Spongebob.. para di kana masyadong magdrama sa text"
sabi ko...

"Adik ka talaga.."
sabi nya...

makikita mo yung ngiti nya... saka ung ngiti ng mga mata nya sa ginawa ko....
yun ang effort...
I want him to feel na special sya....
na my taong ititreat sya as a special person...

pumasok kami sa pantry to talk a while,.,..
mga kung anu ano lang....
tapos nagpaalam na sya at papasok pa sya...
kaya umalis nadin ako....

.......

yung gabing yun....
my naisip ako....
isang malupit na plano....

its called "3 MONTHS RULE"
basically 90 days RULE...
bibigyan ko sya ng 90 quotes in  paper in 90 days...
mga inpirational quotes and mga banats...
too keep him smile everytime na papasok sya....

so i texted him kung what no. ng locker nya...
kaso my kasama daw sya sa locker nya...
so my plan change na ihuhulog ko yung letter dun sa locker nya...

so i gave my locker no. na lang ...
bubuksan nya yun everyday bago sya pumasok...
at iniiwan ko dun yung quotes na nasa paper...
pag umuuwi ako....

Yes its a big effort for 90 days...
but i just want him to feel special....
kung maging kami man...
tadhana na bhala jan. hehe...

Cuddle pt.2

i was about to sleep na..
kaso di ako mkatulog besides him...
i dont know what will happen..
im a bit nervous...
di na ko bata.. i know what will happen if
you sleep w/ the guy you like besides you...
alam na...

so i whisper to his ears...
coz i know his not sleeping...
pinakiraramdaman nya ko.. hehe
i said..

"may sasabihin ako sayo"
...
"ano yun??"
...
"do you like me... kasi.. I like you but for now im looking forward to be your friend.."
...
he replied..
"ahmm... mas ok for now kung friends... but i like you"...
...
i was flattered seriously?!! pachicks kaya ako...
"ahhh... ok"

.......

so di na kami nakatulog...
nagusap nalang kami about mutual friends... family... personality etc..
sobrang totoo nya lang...
there's no adds on sa lahat ng kwento nya...
its just him...
most of the stories his telling was his failures and embarassment...
and most also are positives about him...
seriously walang guy na magsasabi ng mga embarassing and
failure moments nya... basta basta right...
basta ang dami namin pinagusapan....
we were enjoying talking too much...
hanggang sa nanahimik na kami....
and sabi nya nilalamig daw sya...
pero ung totoo ako naiinitan na??!!
kahit umuulan.. ang init padin...
so i dont know if gusto lang nya yakapin sya???
kaya kumuha ako ng kumot... to cover him...
kaso nilalamig padin daw sya...
so i asked him na...

"Gusto mo.. ihug kita??"
....
"Ikaw Bahala?"
...
i knew it,,, gusto lang talaga mayakap nito... haha...
(PBB TEENS)

so dumating na kami sa lambingan session at tuloy usap usap ulit...
hanggang sa pati mga buhok buhok sa katawan napagusapan nadin namin...
kasi parehas kaing balbon...
and i was telling him na tumutubo na ung chest hair ko...
and ayun meron din daw sya...
pero inaahit nya...
inangat nya yung damit nya...
hawakan ko daw ung chest nya... na inaahit nya...
at ayun ang kati!!!... kasi tumutubo na...
at pinipilit nya yung kamay ko na ihug sya...
ang kati talaga..haha...
patu bandang sa puson nya my mga tumutubo nadin...
and his holding my hands to touch does itchy hairs...
hanggang sa hinila nya pababa yung hands ko sa *toot* nya...

"ANo yun????"
....
"haha... ano pa ba??"
...
"Sabi ko ano yun.. parang wala naman??"
..
"ahh.. wala pala huh???!!! eto ka!.. HAHAHA"
...
"adik ka??!! seryoso ka...?? now? dito? sa kabilang kwarto lang sila oh?"
...
"oo dito.. now na.."
...
"adik ka!!! ang naughty mo pala! hehe"
...
"Looks can be deceiving.. haha..."

(AND THE REST WAS HISTORY)

after the Boom Boom part... actually nag end up lang sa Blow Job To Hand Job...
kasi nga mahirap na baka mahuli pa kami... si JANINE??!!!
GOsssshhhhhh i cant imagine??!!!!

i was expecting na after ng Boom Boom moments... ay uuwi na sya?
like those other guys i make Love with... na after ng Boom part...
ayun,.. uuwi na sila.. :((
but this one is different... he stayed at my side...
and sleep... we sleep together hugging w/ each other and holding each other hands... ♥
it was different... and i hope this is really different...

It was aroung 4:00am nung ginsing nya ko..
uuwi na daw sya... kasi my pasok pa sya....
and thats it... hinatid ko sya sa labas hanggang makasakay sya
ng trycle... and my night was AMAZING!!...
it was Great!... hehe ♥

Cuddle pt.1

A good relationship starts ba w/ a good sex fo the first night
you been together...?
Does sex should always comes first ba when it comes to
same sex relationships...
ganun ba talaga batayan ngayon?
sex comes first?


Last night i got a date...
his a guy from our company but in a different project...
we have a lot of common friends..
so medyo di ako masyadong nagkekwento w/ my friends
between us...
kasi mahirap na maissue... dba?
anyway ayun lumabas kaming dalawa...
it was unexpected kasi nung morning kachat ko lang sya sa fb..
then yun his going to SM daw to buy beanie aka bonet...
I ask him if gusto nya samahan ko sya..
kasi nga wala sya kasama.. plus.. wala din naman ako
gagawin that time..
So we ended up that night..
sinamahan ko sya at Harbor Point and we headed to
Penshoppe store kaso wala kaming nagustuhan na beanie..
so we ended up in bench store and we were lucky kasi SALE sila..
and after kakatingin ng bonet.. ayun nakapili nadin kami...
plus he bought to clothes nadin kasi almost half ung dicount per tees...

After malling galore...
we decided to watch movie "Total Recall"
it was fun.. lalo na pag nagdidikit ung braso namin..
sa sandalan nung chair.. hehe.. kinikilabutan ako...
kasi nga mabilis ako ginawin...
so after movie i was expecting na uuwi na kami...
but he said na he wants to visit my place daw..
kaya we headed at my place...
dun namin naabutan sila janine,zhane,yuan,aris...
and he gets along naman.. kasi di naman sya ganun ka shy type..
so ang ending feel at home sya.. hehe...

after ilang hours after we ate dinner...
inaantok na daw sya...
so i asked him if he wants to come home na...
kasi my pasok pa sya ng 8am... so baka mapuyat pa sya if
he stays long at my place...
but he insist na magstay pa daw sya..
pero halata namang antok na sya or ( antok antukan??) hehe
so nilabas ko yung isang matress sa kwarto para
dun kami sa sala matulog kasi kahut papano...
ilang padin sya w/ my housemates...
but i told him na gising sya ng 1am kasi my
pasok pa sya ng 8am...
so ako nadin nagset ng Alarm clock nya...
and ayun nakatulog na sya,...

after almost 2 hours ata?? cant remember,,,
nagring na yung alarm ng cp nya,,
but pinatay nya lang yun...
and i asked him if uuwi na ba sya...
he replied na samin na daw sya matulog...
maaga nalang daw sya gigising...

so natulog nadin ako besides him kasi medyo late
nadin plus ang dami kong ginwa that day...



TO BE CONTINUED....

KJ (love StrucK)

yung akala nyo kayo na till the end..
yung kayo na soulmates...
yung sya na si destiny...
yung kayo talaga ment to be..
yung almost perfect love...
yung ganung akala...
....................................

but one mistake can break it all apart..
and one thing is left...
a heartbreak...

its a story of  Love..mistake.. trust.. but its all about Love ♥...

a story of my two special friends...
and they are one sweet couple...
i seen them together w/ shimmer in there eyes...
yung kislap sa mata nila everytime magkasama silang dalawa...
yung smiles nila full of love everytime they talk...
makikita mo talaga sa kanila yung true love...
yung true love na hindi mo basta basta makikita
sa ordinary couples...

but after 5 years together...
may mga happenings na hindi inaasahan...
lets say its a mistake to make it formal...
naging unfaithful yung isa...
and the other one finds out..
and turns out into WAR!...

based on my opinion...
its a world full of wrong...
walang perfect na tao..
everyone make mistakes..
nobody's perfect...

but kahit sino namang typical partner
magagalit sa unfaithfulness nung isa..
its a natural behavior ng kahit sinong normal na tao..
hindi natin sya pede sisihin kung may nasabi
man sya or nagawang masama...
kasi kinain na sya ng anger...
galit na hindi dahil sa he/she hates you...
his angry because he loves you...
and his angry ano ba nagawa nya para maging
unfaithful ung isa...
nagkulang ba sya...
is it not enough??...
his angry why you do such a thing...
kahit sino magagalit sa ginawa nung isa...

WHY?!! (thats the first question)
.......................

but i know you guys really love each other...
walang makakasira jan...
maraming pagsubok sa relasyon..
and i think this one is tough...
oo mahirap but its a challenge na
pag nalampasan nyo it will make your relationship
more stronger and better...
if you guys still love each other...
you can get through this mess...

i know at this moment...
masakit padin..
but ones na huminahon na ang lahat...
im sure you will realize every good times you been through...

so dont give up everything...
your job..
your carrier..
your life..

because ones you gave it up..
it will make you look weaker!!!

walang perfect na relasyon...
remember all the good times you had..

yung 1st kiss..
yung 1st monthsary..
yung 1st anniversary...
yung 1st flowers and chocolates...
yung 1st time na sinabi nyo sa isat isa yung word na "I LOVE YOU"

alalahanin nyo lahat ng yun...
lahat ng challenges you been through..
pano kayo nagkakilala...
yung moment na sinagot ka nya..
yung moment na sinagot mo sya...
yung moment na naging kayo...
Think about it...

WALANG PERFECT NA RELATIONSHIP... :)

Paminta

wala ako mapost.,, kasi boring ang day ko for today...

so i add something exciting... some of my gayguy friends...

and gayguys na nainvolve sa buhay ko...

that circulates on my teenage years... nung mga panahon

pariwara pa talaga ako...

Enzo 
one of my nicest friend na ex  ng ex ko... na naging ex ni christian
na naging jowa ni John  na ex ni Zhyver aka flirt no.2...

na si zhyver na ex ni christian at nakaflirt ko...

John

nakaemotan ko before na ex ni zhyver na nakaemotan ko din 3rd yr. 

1st semester na jowa ngayun ni enzo na ex ng ex ko. haha :D

Wynn

friend ni Kat na naging friend ko na din na jowa ngayon ni Francis na

nalink kay Emjay because of me.. na ex ni Jayson na ex ni Jaypee

na naging ex nya din na gusto din karirin si enzo!

Emjay

his like my kuya na.. we became friends na nilakad ko sya kay Wynn  

pero di din sila nagworkout na di ko alam for what reason

na ex nadin ni Enzo!!!

Jayson 

ex ni Wynn at ex din ni Jaypee na naging ex ng dalawa

at naging magjowa din ung dalawa nyan ex.! at naging sila

ni Mhykel na nakaemotan ko at in the end ako naging

tulay... but ended up nung sa manila nagwork si Mhykel.

Mhykel

nakaemotan ko before na naging ex nu Jayson..

na napadpad kung saan at ngayon wala na

kong balita.. haha

Francis

friend ni Kat na naging friend ko nadin na current partner ngayon ni Wynn..

na classmate before ni Luigi na workmate ko..

Christian

ex ni enzo na ex ni zhyver at karamay ko basta

kalandian at lovelife.!! haha

Gold

One of the most important guy...

sya lang talaga yung nageffort sakin,..

kaso abnormal pa ko during that time..

so inignore ko lang sya ng inignore with all his effort..

then one day... nawala sya... and dun ko naramdaman

yung SPARK.. but its too late na...

he belong to someone else na.. but after ilang months

they break up... his one of the guy na iniyakan ko

then last was doreimon.. haha.. 3 sila actually.. the other one

is nonsense na nagcause ng pagiging flirt ko,. hehe

but if my chance na magkalapit ulit ka me ni Gold...

gossssHHH!! di ko na papalampasin,...

I love this GUY!!! huhu.. nasa huli nga ang pagsisisi.. hehe

ME!

Last but not the list me..... haha.. eepal lang...

nakaemotan si Zhyver, si John , si Mhykel...

na ex ngayon ng mga exe's nila!!! wahahahaha!!!! TOINKS!

but now... changing for the better...

NO!

Last night i check my planetromeo account..
and usually everytime i check in...
ang dami ng message the past 15 palang..
god.. ganun naba ako kaindemand???!
nakakataas ng self confidence huh..
even though i know im not that cute bunny type (pahumble...)
i got messages from different gayguys..
and im so bored last night i check every messages..
which is commonly looking for sex and hookups nanaman...

Pero as i told on my last post..
Playtimes over...
so hindi ako nakipagsex last night even though its my day off..
plus i made a promise to myself...
im controlling my temptation... im like a goddamn vampire...
begging to drink or taste a drop of blood.
i know this is not easy...
but its for good nadin, which is alam ko it will
make me a better person..
much amazing... and more good image..

anyway.. im having good time with my new friend..
the FB guy that i go with...
we have some difference padin naman...
and nagsisimba na ko.. hehe..
thanks to him..
plus were planning to go to the gym by september..
were Gym Buddies now.. im sure im getting hotter...
and ayun.. we have same taste when it comes sa outfits..
plus pareho kaming cute.. perfect friends that i really looking for...
Lets face it we live in a PHYSICAL WORLD...
kya dapat make your self good looking as possible diba..
kung di ka ganun kacute di ka mapapansin...
Physical Look comes first before the smooth emotions right...

but hey.. my Love is Blind pa naman,..
it really excist... PROVEN!!!
remember nabiktima na ko ng Love is Blind na yan...
so my pagasa ka padin if u dont have the full package...

hay na ko.. baka binabasa nanaman ng feeler na yun.. tong blog ko..
if i know... :{

so ill put him on my next post after this..

thats all.. no more hookups... time to change for the better...

Stop!

Some people may think im a SLUT, PLAYER, PALIPAT LIPAT...

but my storya naman sa lahat lahat kung bakit ba ginagawa 

yun ng isang tao...

Nahurt na din ako once...

as in WASAK!.. SAKITTTT!!... sobra...

na nagtrigger sakin na maging malandi.. pokpokin.. slut bitch!...

its a BAD ROMACE... a very  very bad romace..

kaya naman nadala ako..

i never trust when it comes to love...

kasi nga nadala na...

so irealized everybody is playing around..

just want sex and one night stands...

so i just played there games...

specially in my world...

puro laro lang ang lahat..

its hard to find the right one..

but i realized its been a year.. year...

so i think its time to stop playing around..

no more one night stands or anything related to sex..

and change partners every week or months?!!!!

i need to change...

its time to change..

I'm going to find my way back into Love..

and trust another guy once again..

and i hope i'll find him along the way..

it will take time.. and effort...

but i will not be hasty when it comes to it...

and NO MORE SEX and Sleepovers...

ill just use my Fucking hand!! haha :DD

and wait for the right guy to touch it once again w/ 

Love and seduction.. :3

So medyo medyo mabuburo muna tayo... haha

I swear... Time na... Stop na.... Playtimes OVER!

Bitches!

seriously most of my friends are BICTHES!!

and heres my list...

1. KAT 

i guess shes the mother of all the bitches i ever met.. sya yung nagturo samin ni Karen being

wild and free.. sobrang bitch nya lang.. at sobrang family oriented!!

I met her in my school sobrang friendly nya lakas makabad influence and 

ayun  ako naman tong si kaladkarin nakaladkad ni gaga...

sya na yung lasenggera party animal na nakilala ko sa lahat lahat ng naging bessy ko..

and i miss her so much.. ewan ko ba nagpakalilo din kasi si gaga late 2011 na ata..

nakakamiss din pangangaladkad nya sakin for gimiks, party and everything...

2. Christian (Rattle Snake)

god!! wla ako msabe sa ahas na to.. haha..

lets say nalang ako yung pokpok na palagi nalang my different guys na kasama every gimiks.

and sya yung pokpok na mahilig mangagaw.. haha.. i guess mas malakas talaga yung charm nya sakin.

remember my last post late 2010.. sya si flirt no.1 

http://bakitchan.blogspot.com/2010/12/broken.html

but christian is a good friend specially during your down needs...

basta usapang lovelife... at katangahan... naku jan magaling si Christian!..

kaso di na kami ganon masyado naguusap kasi busy busy nadin sa work..

3. Karen

Siraulo sa lahat lahat... ng friend karen will always be the special one..

schoolmate ko sya during college.. and because friends of friends ayun naging close kami

and after college were still close padin..

sya yung psychotic bitch na kung ano anong kaaabnormalan yung pinaggagawa sa buhay...

she even convinced me to stop school na and magwork nalang so ayun kaya stress ako ngayon sa work..

haha.. but shes living in US na.. and i miss her nadin.. why most of my friends are leaving na.. huhu..

4. Ahsia

Pinakaabnormal and sobrang family oriented !!!

shes one of my closest even now...

di nawala yung friendship namin...

meron syang attitude na di makuha ng iba,...

na halos kami lang ni karen nakakaride sa ugali nya.,..

hahaha...

shes masaya naman kasama.. and sobrang kaladkarin din..

schoolmate ko sya before and i remember nagkasundo kami

dahil my inaway kami na teacher sa NSTP..

kasi sobrang kurakot nya lang.. haha..

5. Janine

shes my closest friend right now...

and i even left my last partner because of her!! i hate her so much!!!

(just kidding) thats how much i love this bitch!!.

kaya ko iwan pati jowa ko for the sake of our friendship...

i even remember the last time na nagaway kami because of a guy..

na nabaliw sya.. haha...

and ayun lang talaga pinagawayan namin,.,

kasi nagwoworry ako for her dahil nga its a wrong guy!..

nagkakilala kami sa work and made us closer even nung nagresign na sya,,

halos dun na sya nakatira sa apartment ko...

and sya lang yung nagiisang kong friend na ginawa kong bangko!.. haha

Attached

ilang araw nadin akong absent because im not ok..

sa family sa work.. and everything...

maghapon lang ako nakahiga ... watch movie... 

sobrang silent lang ng life ko this fast few days...

thank god.. my new member kami sa apartment..

si mam arian...

ayun kulit lang ni mam... 

and i realized stop na...

no more self fittynes!

and tomorrow pasok nanaman...

hirap talga maattached masyado sa tao...

nakakastressssss..

hay Gudluck..

Drama

Fine... blinock ko na sya...
gusto ko na putulin lahat ng connection namin...
nahihirapan kasi ako sa nararamdaman ko..

ayoko gawin lahat to..
kasi wala naman sya gnwang masama sakin...
bukod sa nagbago na sya..
or nasanay lang talga ako sa dati na palagi kaming magkasama...
kaya nagiging ganto ako...
pero ang hirap kasi...
di ko na malabanan ung weird feeling na yun..
mas ok na ako na ung lumayo kaysa one day
marealize ko na di nya na talaga ako sinasamahan or everything..
namimiss ko din yung dating sya..
the two of us... ung ok pa kami ni doreimon...

kaya naman ayoko masyadong naaattached sa isang tao na
wala namang pakiramdam...
na kaylanagan mo pa iexplain sa kanya lahat...
na ganito ka kasi.. ganyan .. ano.. basta...
hindi pa sya ganun siguro kamature para marealize un..
i thought pa naman were gonna be really good closed friends...
pero ganto pa ending...
naapektuhan na buhay ko sa araw araw...

mahal ko na ata talaga yun...
ngayon lang nangyari sa akin yung mga gantong feeling eh...
ehh.. bat sa maling tao pa... badtrip naman kasi!!!!..
i tested kung mawawala ung feeling na yun..
pero HINDI... hindi nawala.. nanjan lang...
ang hirap itago...
kaya nga mas ok na ako nalang ung mawala..
kasi ako naman ung may problema...

im having problems with my dad..
and sagad sagad na problema ko..
ayoko na syang idagdag pa..
ang dami k ng pinagdaanan...
ayokong madagdagan pa.. kasi di din naman ako
ganon ka strong na tao...
mahina din ako...
thats why im always leaving...
palagi nalang ako suko...
palagi nalang ako ung umaalis..
or ako yung iniiwin ng mga tao...
masyado na kong dramatic pero ganun naman talaga ako...
pero di ko pinapakita sa real world..
dito ko na nga lang nalalabas ung dramatic side ko...
ung totoo.. sobrang sad ng life.. ko... sobrang depressing...
pero humaharap padin ako na nakangiti and happy person
sa harap ng ibang tao..

after nung drama ko with my dad.. 2 weeks ago na ata..
another delema nanaman with doreimon...
hindi matatapos to hanggat di talaga ako umaalis..
hay....... drama.....