Cause of Gayness…

Cause of Gayness…

Many people ask me, how you become gay….???
Actually tanong ko din yan sa sarili ko…
How did i ended up being gay,,
Actually im not inborn like this unlike other gay says
Im gay since I was born..!
But kanya kanyang pananaw yan so if that makes you
Satisfy, fine with me.! ( wala ako pake sayo..HAHHAA)

OK!!!
Ill share this story of mine…
Its one of my very deepest secret…
When I was a kid if im not mistaken 5 or 6 ako that time…
I was sexually abused by this teenage guy,,,
I wont tell what happen… because I really want to forget it…
And that’s not all.. madami pa kong sexual abusement nung bata ako..
I was sexually abused by my cousin.. from blah2x,,,
Di ko sasabihin lahat masyado nang sensitive out of my boundry na.. hehe
Dahil sa mga experience ko that times..
Syempre ang bata ko pa non…
It makes me curious??? Bakit ba ganun???
So hinanap ko sya when I was turning high school…
Naging aggressive ako when it comes to sex w/ same gender..
And most nageenjoy talaga ako sa ginagawa ko…
So I ended up like this… GAY…

I also have a gayguy friend.. and we have the same story to tell when wer kids..
He was also S.Abused by his tito…
So he ended up being gay din, and di lang kami nakaexp. Nito madaming madaming gays pa!!!!
Even straight guys also!!

Some says dahil sa environment wich is kinda true…
They say if a guy is living in a community w/ so many gays..
Youll become gay also..
And “NAKAKAHAWA DAW”!!!!
God.. so they saying na MALALANG DESEAsed Ang pagiging GAY!
I think di naman sya nakakhawa… na pag nasneezesan ka ni BEKI
Kinabukasan sisipunin kana at BADiNG KANA??? How patetic!
For me its more on INFLUENCIAL MEANs Not DESEASED!
Parang ganto yan tropa mo puro drug addict!
So your peers might influence you to take drugs also!
But its w/ you if papayag ka!!!
Parang sa gayness if they are gay and your not
And your happy hanging out w/ them…
It doesn’t mean your gay! Because you know what you really are!
RIGHT!,,
Kasi naman we Pinoys are SO CHISMOSA!!!
Lahat nalang ng nakikita natin pinapansin natin w/ side comments pa…
But always remember this before we say something bad w/ others,,,
Please take a look at your self first,,,

And some says I WAS BORN BEING GAY!,!!!
Lets say may ganun nga but wala namang scientific proofs
Na a person was born gay if meron talaga…
Wala akong maisip such a thing na gay since birth….
(so mga mothers pagkalabor nyo pa check nyu agad sa Dr, if gay ang BABy u..LOL!!!)

THE DIFFERENT TYPE OF GAYS!!!!

THE DIFFERENT TYPE OF GAYS!!!!

Last week my neighboor w/ a gay child asked me
(Chan, bakit yung anak ko Bakla pero di naman mukang bakla???)
Chan my son is gay but he don’t look like a GAY???
-I hope this could help her…. To answer her question…

Actually this is not official its like my own research and observation…
And some help of my friends….

OK!!! Did you guys know that there are types of gays….
So if your curious about your gayness or your gay son… hope this could help..

TRIVIA:
Hir in Philippines Gay (in tagalog “BAKLA”), sounds ugly,discusting and unpleasant right!!!!
But that’s the way it is… WALA NA TAYONG MAGAGAWA! (we cant do anything about it!)

1.)Gays that wear dresses,long beautiful hair, female voice, have boobs, beautiful face and specially
Have (TOOOTHHH,female organ) because of some MAJOR2x PACKAGE SURGERY!!!!
Are called “TRANSGENDER”!!!! means TRANSFORM!!GENDER!
(So if ambisyosang kang bakla porket mahaba na ang buhok mo at my suso kana ngunit my lawit kapa
Wag kang ambisyosa na feeling transgender ka!!! GAY kapadin!!!ok! wag mag ilusyon huh!)

2.)Gays that have TYPE A: long hair,fake hair,wear dresses, fake boobs,muscles…???hehe
TYPE B:short hair,frustrated crossdresser, fake boobs + big muscles!!
Are called “GAYS(BAKLA)”… w/ 2 TYPES.. TYPE A & B so what type are you…
This gays are commonly we see in our community…

3.)Gays that physically kinda look like a guy… have short hair… male shoes,shirt,pants etc.. and act like a man in public… and talk like a man.. but never contact w/ girls……
Are called “GAYMEN” or “GAYGUY”… actually I cant find a tagalog word for this type… is it ok (BAKLANG LALAKE,pangit diba)hahha… I guess this is the type that I BELONG!!!! Hehe
This type is VERY VERY COMMON in our community!! Specially at my school hehe,,(DAMING PAMINTA)

4.)Gays that act like a man and definitely look like a man,talk like a man.. very straight!! And attracted w/ girls.. had an experienced w/ a girl.. and also w/ a guy! Hehehe.
Are called “BISEXUALS”…(SILAHIS)… This kind of gayness is very rare,,,,
Many GaYmen or Gayguy think that they are BISEXUALS… because they act like a man dress like a man etc. but prankly never had an experience w/ a girl!!! So his NOT a BISEXUAL instead what we call
GAYMEn or GayGuy…. (kaya wag kang pilita na bi. Ka… ehh wala ka namang GF!!!! At never kapang
Nagkagirlfriend)!!!!! (And if mahina ang SIGNAL ng GAYDAR mo sorry ka tE di mo to maamoy)
(So mother.. ingat ka sa best friend ng anak mo… baka bf nya pala yan!)(isa ka pa sis, baka kaya ka
Jinowa ni babaylan dahil type nya pala KUYA MOHH!!! Hahahaha!!!)

So That’s ALL hope you guys I mean gays what kind of gay you are….
But what ever we call it… transgender, gay A&B,GAYMEN,BISEXUALS!!!!!
The simpleist answer with that, we gays belong to the word what they call
“HOMOSEXUALS” period…
Its just like this HOMOSEXUALITY is like SCIENCE w/ different roots like
ANATOMY,BIOLOGY,CHEMISTRY,PHYSICS etc. wer every root have specialty…
Hope you guys love my article… and finally answered the question in your minds……
“WHAT KIND OF GAY AM I???” tsk.tsk.tsk

"Si TSINOY"

before we start,,
grave kagavi huh,,,
tamang shot lang sa board walk last night w/ my guy friends..
and ang daming kano!!! my 2 navy ships na dumaong! i dont know lang if
ilang weeks sila dun...
sayang di ako makaget ng 1!!!
puro lalaki ba naman kajoin ko that night ehh!!!
MALAS2x!!!!


ill tell u guys about my ultimate crush in college..
ung guy sa Pic!
but now one of my best straight guy friends...
most of my friends are straight guys...
because of the carrier im taking.. hehe...

ok... lets call him tsinoy...
his half filipino and half chinese..
like my ex michael Yu,, hehe..
ahmm.. athletic ung body type nya...
he had a good skin..
and a stunning eyes. i love chinito's..
(another weaknessS)

it started @ my 1st yr. 2nd semester in college..
his a transfered student from blah3x!!!!
his also taking the same course im taking up! and same batch! YEY!
His medyo tahimik and serious type,,,
(nuon yun!!!) and loner sya,,! kasi nga transfery wala pang friendsS..
yung totoo kala ko Bi. sya,,.. na late puvirty,,,
in Short (Bi. na wala pang exp! LOL)
dahil sa pagiging tahimik and loner ni chinoy!
So nagassume nanaman ang bida nyo!,,
palibhasa ASSUMERA!!

So ito nanaman ako papansin!..
but di ung papansin na bulgaran huh!..
Out naman ung ganun! my poise padin ako!

One day,, lonely nanaman c tsinoy! as usual!
nakaupo sya sa bench??? i dont know what to call it!
basta upuan na my mahabang table na ewan?(UNKNOWN)
so upo naman ako sa tabi nya w/ my clasmate rocel..
(take note: di na nagsstudy si rocel.. and my baby na sya now)
grave dedma lang si tsinoy!.. no reaction!

so to break up the silence!
super mega sound naman ung xpress music phone ko that time...
@ womanizer by britney spears pa nga ang trip ko!
So GAY.... di ba!
naalala ko nanaman tuloy c Chris Crooker sa Youtube!HAHAHa!!!
ok! while my phone keeping its beat up!
nawindang ako seeing tsinoy's feet following the sounds beat!..
(SHIT Bi. nga to?) ok2x!! i know O.A ako that days! hheheh

Totally di ko nakausap si Tsinoy that time...
my magpagka Shy type kasi ako???? (question mark)

Boring diba!....
so the class started at clasmate ko sya sa C language!
and guess what katabi ko sya!...
swerte ko diba!(assumera times 2)

as my prof. discussing this and that, type this,type that blah3x!!!
nakatingin sakin c tsinoy!!
Shit type ata ako nito! hahahahaha!!
Type typan na tohHH!!!

"anu ung nakasulat dun sa projector?"
(Damn! ang laki ng BOSES nya! galing sa ilalim ng lupa!di ko masyadong naintindihan))

"huh??"

"anu ung nakasulat dun sa projector??!"

"ahhhh.. ito copy moh?"

So malabo pala ang mata ni Tsinoy...
Laki pa ng BOSES! so Masculine,,, Hayy!

so that they nakilala ko na sya.. and that start our friendship at
buong batch namin... (FRIENDSHIP nga ba)

So close na ang lahat at my outing this week..
at kasama sya!
and alam ng mga clasmate ko na type ko si tsinoy..
at kala naman ni tsinoy na biro lang un..
sa totoo lang isip bata pa to! promise!

from tahimik slash LONER...!
kabaliktaran naman ngayon ni Tsinoy!
ang Kulit2x nya...
palagi nya kong kinukulit!
ehhehe

Sa OUTINg!

im Tipsy na pati sya!
and also the other friends...
my spin the bottle! Kaloka!
so Lucky ako at tumapat sakin ung bote!

the dare was!

"Chan, kiss mu nga si ____/tsinoy.."

di nagsasalita si tsinoy!

"WHAT!!!!! ako!!! ayoko nga"
(pavirgin ako kunyare)

"daya.. sige na!!!)

tinignan ko si gago...
nakangiti lang!!!
(naaRouse ako promise! add u pa ung tipsiness ko.hahaha)

"sa Chicks lang huh,,"
(bobo ko no!!! if alam nyo lang lips! lips ang gusto ko taaga, ayoko lang
maScandal mabuti na ung magingat!!)

so tingin na ko kay tsinoy!
sabay kiss naman ako sa chix nya,,,
tapos un...
masaya feeling heaven!!!
(but mas feeling heaven parin ung mga namimit ko sa guys4men, naughty ko hahah)

to make this short dahil antok na ko!

so ayun... di naman nagbago trato nya sakin..
we become more closer!
Until NOW super close and sweet nya sakin..
but wala na kong feelings sa kanya huh,,
his like a best friend na brother na sakin...
and concern sya if something bad or wrong na meron sakin...
happy ako at nakilala ko si tsinoy!
his my very special straight friend!!!!
TSINOY!!!!!!

"Clark Kent, SuperMan???"

so at my last post i tell u guys..
about this mala clark kent na guy...!
c jeff Jayson..
but i call him JJ... hehe.. close na kami.. haha...
and take NOTE: "my future huhHH!!!" wahaha!

ok last last day...
i was talking w/ new friends...
parepareho kami ng trip we are anime lovers..!!
and offcourse a Cosplayer as well..
so wer planning to make an org, an Anime lovers org..
wer still thinking what would be the org.'s name... hehe
so back from the top...

as im talking w/ this new friends..(O.O)
a guy caught my attention...
shockksss.. its JJ...
and his smiling at me.. ang cute ng smile nya sakin.. hehe... (blushing)
so i smile back...
dahil makati ako tinawag ko sya,,, HAHAHAHA!!!

"Hey... JJ!!!"

"oHhh.. so wats up?"

"yun pa din ba no. mo..??"

"Yup..."
(punyeta smart ako sun sya... hirap talaga! imbyerna!!!)

"So,, my klase kapa?..."

"wala na bakit?"

"wala... i just wanna know hehe.."

"ganun,,, (smile again)...
(shit,,, my weakness again!!)

"so gehh,,, text2x nalang,,"

"ok,,"

after school bili naman agad ako ng sun cell.. hehe

and tnxt ko sya kaagad....

after a minute my nagtxt...

To be continued...

SC ako! My REKLAMO!

ok sa intrams!!!
after the cheerdance competition!
my work now as a student council!
anu ba trabaho ng student councils!!
madali lang naman!! madaling madali!!!

student council are the ones who
organized all the events @ the school!!!! (ALL)
wer the one who finds sponsors,,,
decorates the place of the event,,,
magbuhat ng tore toreng mono blocKssSS!!!!!!!!
awayin ng ibat ibang DEPARTMentSSss!!!!! if
my problema!!!!!
murahin ng Nursing dept.!
dahil luto daw ung pageant!!!!
(w/c is i dont know?)
mamigay ng foods sa lahat ng faculty!!!!
and huling uuwi pag my events!!!

in short!!!
(ALALAYYYY ng SchooL)

ewan ko ba at napasok ako sa student council!
if alam ko lang na ganito sana di na pala
ako pumayag na representative ng department namin sa SC!!!

and wala kaming department nung intrams!
pag SC! LONER! huhu

dahil pasway ako!
nung cheering di talaga ako tumulong at nagchicheer pa ko sa dept.
namin w/c is bawal if SC ka!
so natalakan ako ng sobRa ng Pres, namin!! hahaha

but masaya din naman maging SC,,,
kahit papano!
its a new exp.! unforgetable exp!!!
dami ko ding nakaclose sa co-Sc ko!
ung kulitan pag nakahandusay kani sa sahig dahil sa
sobrang pagod!!!!
pag sinusugod ung headquarters namin ng ibang dept!
pag kulitan at kwentuhan sa mga ibang dept. na nagrereklamo!
pag umuuwi ng pagapang etc.!
at pagmagbubuhat ng mga long table and ung napakalaking
"AIRCON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sa payat kong to nabuhat ko lahat ng yon!
at lahat kaming Sc ay nagsisisi at napasok namin to!
na w/c is di na namin papasukin pa! VOW!!!

CHEER!!!

ok
this is the reason..
why di ako nakapagupdate
sa blog ko...
dahil busy busyhan ako sa intrams..
w/c is natapos na.. woohhh..
2 weeks before the said event
i was assigned na magayos ng cheer squad
ng department namin...
offcourse di ako pede sumali because
Student council ako sa school..
madidisqualified kami if sumali ako...
So the day that i was assigned..
punta na ako agad sa class ng mga 1st.yr..
to get the list of names and their contact no.
after the mahabang listahan..
tnext ko na lahat cla...
gosShhHH.. 50+ ung nasa list...
pinagtyagaan kong itype un sa cp ko.. kaloka!!!
most of them are boys..(Something FISHY!!LOL)
malamang dahil engineering course ang department namin.!!
and a few girls..!
but maximum of 35 lang ang needed!
so the next day paAUDITION na ung
choreo!
from 50 Bagsak ng 24! HAHAHA!!!
and 1 guy caught my attention!
i know his like me.. halata naman.. lakas ata ng GAYDar ko!
i met this nung sa Up trip pa but di ko sya masyadong
pansin that moment..
his a type of guy na di mo maapreciate @ 1st,,
but pag tumatagal FAKK!!! Yummy si Jr.! haha
so i take down the list ng top 24!!!
so his name was Jeff jayson!!
nakaeyeglass sya,,,(god 1 of my weakness)
type ko maala Clark Kent! hehe
kaso my problem...
hindi pa daw sya sure if makakasali sya..
need pa daw nya ng concent by his parents( what a GoodBoy)
and Sun sya! hirap contakin!!!! bad3p..
the next day!
what a Bad Day!!!
ndi sya pinayagan!!! huhu

Boy 1 - DELETED!!!
but ngitian kami pag nagkakasalubong kami sa school..
SWEET!!!!

so the practice started!
ako abala sa ganito and ganyan!
and ang pinakaayaw kong trabaho ang magAUDIT! and treasurer!
so nagaasign ako ng treasurer sa 1st.yr..
so bawas trabaho!!! but still audit auditan padin me!!
STRESSSS!!!!!

after 3 days of practice!!
papatahi na sila ng costume w/c ako pa pinagdesign!!!
huhuhu.,,

*SA PATAHIAN*

another guy caught my attention! (KATI KO!!)
di ko pa knows name nya!
he got a good body features!
ndi kargador huh!
slim na ewan..
basta ganda magdala!
and his cute but not much!
mas cute pa ko sa lahat ng boys na kasali! hahaha!!
(promise)

but this one is straight lost nanaman ako!!!

so no more karir in cheering!!!
but masaya ako at nakilala ko sila
dami ko nanamang new friends!
and they call me "Kuya Chan"
w/c is irritating! di ako sanay! hahaha
shit im getting old!!!

so a new samahan was developed sa cheering nayun!!
na di ko mafoforget!

So to make this short!!!
nagthird kami sa winners!!!!
we got the Bronze!!!!! yey!!!!
and the next they my suffering bilang student Council!!!!
i was hirap na hirap sa mga nakassign saking event!!!
and ngayon lang ako nakarecover!!!!
wooOtTT!!!!

Bloggers Note:
the straight guys name was Jordan!
at sa totoo lang type ko sya!!!!
and my extra pa! his name was Axl!
na my looks.. but di ko type
and gusto ata ako maexperience!!
feel ko naman if gusto ako makasex
ng isang guy!!hahaha (ilusyonada!)

father and son!

wooOhh..
its been a while nung last akong magpost d2...
medyo busy2xhan din kasi me...
kaya ganun,, hehe,,,
grave ang dami kong gusto iPost sa mga happenings this few weeks,,
but my first post ay ito...
a tribute for my dad,,,
dont worry dami pa kong ipopost at magsesembreak so i have a lot
of time w/ my BLOG!..
SO HERE IT Is,,,

sept.19,2010
a day i will never forget...
a very dramatic day...
na never kong inexpect na mangyayari...

it was a normal day...
i mean gavi un.. hehee
i was in my rm. at my aunts house offcourse..
i was laying at my bed.. wen my dad open the door..
and telling something.. blah3x.. his a littke bit tipsy at that time..
and suddenly he cries...
i was shock!..
then he hugged me so tight,,
di ko alam kung anung nangyayari.. (my namatay ba?)
(my sakit ba sya at mamatay na sya,,) un ang naiisip ko that time..
but he started to speek...
"im really really sorry anak,, if naging malamig ako sayo.."
pasensya na...
ndi ko kasi gusto na ganyan ka...
but if you like to be who you are then go ahead,,,
basta study hard kalang...
his crying when his saying those words,,,
"im really sorry if hindi ako naging mabuting anak.."