Bon Voyage

Kung pede lang maging selfish... why not...

but the problem is.. im not like that...

July 10...

i will never forget that night...

sobrang saya ng gabing yun.. kung pede lang

di na matapos ung gabi,... di ko na talaga tatapusin...

my current partner... Jay...

nagdate kami nung july 10...

we watch movie together... and chill sa bar after..

ang dami naming pinagusapan...

personal things.. family... friends.. and many more...

ang sarap nya talaga kausap.. yun na siguro

yung no.1 asset nya bakit ako nagkainterest sa kanya the first day we met...

but... 

my inopen sya sakin... thats why i made a choice...

his moving to US na.. maybe next month. sasakay sya ng barko kasi nga

sea maritime.. tinapos nya...

its not his choice daw...

wala nga daw sa mga plano nya na magbarko for now..

but ayaw nya naman umasa sa parents nya forever..

he need a job...

but pede ko naman daw sya pigilan.. if i want,..

he can stay here and find a regular job in my city

if gusto ko daw..

but...

one thing comes on my mind...

mas pipiliin ko bang magstay sya dito at maghirap sa pilipinas...

while ung opportunity nya sa US.. nanjan na...

or magpapakaselfish ako na magstay dito...

pra lang makasama ko sya...

hindi pa naman ganon kalaki yung foundation namin..

and i want a better future for him...

ayoko masira ung bright future nya sa US...

ng dahil sakin.. ayoko ng ganun...

plus.. im not good in long distance relationship...

so im sure di kami magwowork out pag dating nya sa US...

So  i made a choice...

july .. friday the 13th...

I broke up with him...

and i explain everything on text.. (im so mean)

and ayaw nya makipaghiwalay...

im so unfair daw... blah.. blah.. blah...

but ayaw nya makinig...

so pinatay ko cellphone ko. 1 day nadin..

im trying to be ok...

masakit din naman sakin ung decision nayun..

its not easy for me...

plus isa pa sa mga reason.. ko...

i want to spend more time with my friends...

specially janine... nasanay nadin ako sa set up..

hanging out with friends most of the time...

so next week maybe day off... maguusap kami.. 

to settle everything down..

goodluck..